Can't commit to a career

Last night when I was leaving work I ran into a friend who had told me that he was in school now and had applied for the Fire Academy. Now I am super happy for him or anyone for that matter who pursues their goals. But why is it that every time that someone tells me about how they are venturing onto this new path or career I feel envious. I mean don't get me wrong I'm happy with my decision and will see it through but why do I always have this feeling like maybe that's the right path for me not this one. Does anyone else feel this way? I made a pack to myself when I started at City College that I would finish at City College but I feel some trepidation about not following a perspective career that might fit me better. Any feedback would be greatly appreciated.

Interior decorating

So as of late I have had a creative bug because I just seem to want to decorate like crazy. Its good because it will make my apartment look nice but its not good on my piggy bank. I have been trying to save up money not for anything in particular but just to save. The other day one of my friends sent me a picture of a street bike. It was a GSXR for any riders in the blog but he told me it was $5000. Now for some back story last year I sold my 2007 Honda CBR 600RR for $6000. Why did I sell it you may ask? Well at the time I was not riding it and I bought it brand new in 2007 so I felt that if I didn't use it then I didn't need it. That was until it was gone and I paid off some bills then I missed it. What is it with that whole not appreciating things until they are gone. Anyways so needless to say I told my friend that I was not interested because even though I may want the bike I don't need the bike. This is how I feel today maybe I will feel differently in like a week. Lol.

Excited for next week

So I am very excited for next week and no its not because it is the last class of the term. Next week I will be going to Puerto Rico next week for a vacation. I have been there before about two years ago but this time I am going with my boyfriend and we will be staying with his family so I feel like I will have a lot more fun this time. Last time I was there it was during the rainy season. I think the weather will be good this time but I will keep my fingers crossed. Now the only dilemma I have to deal with before I leave is where I can put my dog. I tried to unload her with a few family members and friends but no one took the bait. Now I will have to put her in a doggy hotel which I have never done before. I do not want to stress her out but I don't have any other option. Its only for 5 days so I think, or at least I hope she will be alright while I am gone.

Reality TV

OK so some people have strong opinions about people who watch reality tv, but I for one love reality tv. Now I don't mean all reality tv just mostly the housewives and girl intensive drama type shows. I know some people might think that I am mindless and lack a certain intellect to watch them, but I strongly disagree. I am also an avid documentary watcher as well. I just feel that sometimes you need some mindless nonsense like that to watch to forget about some of the horrible things that go on in the world. People watch sitcoms for entertainment and I do the same with reality tv. I find real lives more interesting than ones made up by a board of writers. And to be quite honest between the documentaries I watch and the reality tv I think that I learn a lot about people and the society we live in today.

Just life

So finally everything seems to be settling as far as work. I am back to my new schedule and I have my days off so that I can finally focus on school. A little late for it now but I will do my best. I am content with the new position but I will still continue to pursue other ventures. I feel like it is never good to become complacent or to settle for less. In addition I am still doing well with my diet and exercise. The new schedule very conducive to my fitness routine. I like to not rest for more than two days and this new schedule allows me to do that. I work on Mondays, Tuesdays, Friday, and Saturday so I work no more than two days before I have a day off. I used to have this schedule at my current job before but they changed it about two years ago, but I am very happy to have it back now. Some other exciting news is that I will be going to Puerto Rico the third week of March. I am going with my boyfriend to see his family. I have been before about two years ago and enjoyed my time there but did not get to see a lot of the island. However this time I will be sight seeing all of the things that I did not to see last time, like the Fort. I have been doing a mental count down for a couple of months now and I have been doing a calorie count down in conjunction. Needless to say I am very excited about it and I think after the last year with work and school that it is a well deserved vacation.

Week 6 In a good place

So I can say that I am pleasantly surprised with my new position. It is pretty intense talking to people about their loved ones passing but it is not as bad as I thought it would be. The up side to it all is that I am so busy that time flies by. I am not used to that being the case. Normally in my old position I would be staring at the clock bored out of my mind. The downside to that is I cannot watch any netflix at work (whop, whop, whop). I think that I will remain in this role for some time. At least the required 6 months to be able to apply for the position that I was really gunning for. For the time being I am happy with the decisions I made and the place that I am in right now.

Started my new position.

I have had quite a hectic week. For starters last week I was sick and starting a new position with a whole different schedule. Now if that wasn't enough then I came down with the flu at the same time. On top of that my brother in law ended up in the hospital because his heart stopped for 8 seconds. SO I had to high tail it to South Seminole hospital to be there for him and my sister. This week seems to be settling down. However in my new position we started taking phone calls. Now I work for Chase Bank and I have been in their collections division for 4 years. The new position is in the estates department which handles all deceased notifications. Most people would think I am crazy to want to talk to grieving family members all day, but interestingly enough they are not that sad when they call in. Which me personally I find kind of strange, but to each his own.
                 Yesterday was the first day we started taking calls. It began with me not having any idea what I was doing and then I had another person sitting with me listening to what I was doing. Needless to say they said that I sounded disinterested in the phone calls I was taking. I on the other hand disagreed and said that its not that I was disinterested I was lost and confused. At the end of the day I had a better understanding of what I was doing. I realized that it will take time for me to get good at my new position the same way that it took me time to get used to my old one.
                  Sometimes I find it very interesting how different people respond to different situations. I've gone through many trainings in my life whether it be work or school or the Army. Each time the person that you think will be the most confident fails and the one that you think will leave is the one that ends up being the best of the best. In this training history did repeat itself. The person that in our book work training thought they knew everything and yesterday was the first one to panic and almost cry ready to quit. I actually found a quote for her to try and make her feel better. The quote was "A Smooth sea never made a skilled sailor." She came back today more confident and said that what I quoted made her feel better.

Just don't know

              Ok so this time I'm not going to talk about health or nutrition, because quite frankly I'm tired. This has been a long middle of the week for me. I've started the new position at work. This was the first position not the second one that I truly wanted and pays more. Anyways, So the training started this week and even though the class and the trainer are interesting enough somehow the class manages to be boring. I guess that's with any training class. In call centers boredom is a product of that type of environment. So now I have a morning schedule and let me tell you I am not a morning person. So needless to say I am tired. There is another full day for tomorrow. Not a very interesting post today but maybe more humorous next time.

Grown people problems

          So not to steer away from a more positive outlook in my blogs which is what I've been trying to do. I need to vent about a situation at work. To start I applied for a promotion at work and received a position that was a promotion but it didn't actually come with a promotion. I was originally disappointed but excited that I would be learning a new role. However within days of accepting my the position a previous position that I have been dying to apply for posted. So I checked with my manager and he gave me the green light due to business need. So I went for it. Aced the interview and was told by everyone that I had it in the bag. So on I went thinking that I was getting the position I wanted and the promotion that came with it until all of a sudden I got a call from my boss telling me that because I had accepted the first role that I could not be moved into the role that I wanted.
          Lets just say I had a few choice words and was honestly broken hearted about the whole thing. So tomorrow I'm going to talk to upper management and see if I can express my position and see if I can get a vote to move to the position I want. ultimately I'm hoping for the best but expecting the worst. So wish me luck in pleading my case.

Not vegan anymore

Ok so I said previously that I was going to gear my posts towards fitness. So I went Vegan like two weeks ago and now I'm not Vegan anymore. Kind of comical I know, but the reason it did not work was because i was getting very sluggish and I did'nt feel good at all. At the end of the day you always need to listen to your body and mine was telling me NOOOOO! So now I'm eating beef, poultry, and fish but it is all organic. I have seen some change within a week nothing drastic just something that I would notice. I am still juicing and I feel more energized thanks to that. I have stepped up my game at the gym as well. I am always pretty fit and active but now I'm doing more intense work outs.
One thing that I have noticed making a big difference in my results is eating every 3 hours. I know what you are thinking that its took often. Not really honestly I get hungry often so it makes sence that I eat every 3 hours. It does have to be small things though. For instance I will have some organic oatmeal for breakfast and then 3 hours later I have a fruit. Then lunch and a snack all 3 hours apart. It keeps you from getting hungry which keeps your insulin stable and your metabolism up. All essential for losing maintaining weight.
If anyone has any questions or needs tips or advice I'm always free to help. Fitness is a passion of mine and I like inspiring others and educating people on the right way to do things instead of the heavily advertised quick fixes. Our bodies are our temples and we need to treat them right after all we only get one temple.

Going Vegan

       Ok so for this post I am going to try and be more positive than the last. I decided as of the other day that I am going to eat vegan only. To my surprise I have had a lot of negative feedback about my new revelation. It seems that the most common response I receive is "WHY". So I reply with "WHY NOT". The reason for this decision was due to a documentary that I watched, as you might have guessed two days ago, and it made me rethink things. Now this was not the only reason for this change. Prior to this I did view some other documentaries regarding the meat industry and food industry in general.
        It turns out that we either turn a blind eye or are just very unaware  to the methods used food industry as far as treatment of animals and also meat and produce preparation. I bet you have no idea where the steak or chicken you ate comes from. Well that was the quam I had with it. The packaging can say what it is but I have no idea how the animal was slaughtered and what was put on the meat to clean it and keep it from spoiling. I bet you didn't know that a common practice of these food industries is to clean the meat using ammonia, yes I said that right ammonia. When you eat that steak or that burger just know that you are consuming meat that has been cleansed and preserved with things that you use to clean your house with.
         Before I made the decision to go completely vegan I was eating grass fed meat and eating free range poultry because I thought it was truly humane. However I did find out that the grass fed or free range animals were still being mistreated and the preparation of the meat or eggs or milk for the matter did not change in any way. So I felt that if there is no way that I can be sure how an animal was slaughtered and how its meat was prepared thereafter then I decided that the only way I can control it would be to not eat it at all. This is the third day of my newly vegan diet and to my surprise it was not that bad. I am happy with my decision and I am sure I will be posting more about it moving forward. Stay tuned!

My first ever ever blog about new years resolutioners

               So with this being my first blog I am not going to try and come down hard on society for the way that people do things but since it is fitting, my number one pet peeve is New Years resolution's people. I only say that because I am an avid gym goer and there is no time like the present that I hate so much. Now don't get me wrong I don't disagree with one reinventing them self but all at the same dam* time like come on.
              I highly dislike that there are no machines available and that there are people doing things that I'm almost 100% sure are not an exercise and 95% sure that they should not being doing outside of the privacy of their home. Another fun thing to see is all of the New Year New You runners everywhere. Next time you are driving down the road count how many there are and if you don't know if they are new or not trust me they are. No Floridian will run in freezing temperatures during the frost of 2014 unless it was fueled but non other than a New Years Resolution to get fit.
              This is not to down anyone or to discourage anyone who might have their own New Years resolution my only thing that I guess I'm trying to convey here is that there is no reason that this reinvention of yourself needs to be postponed or dead lined for blast off just because its the new year. After all there is no time like the present and no day like today to do what you want to do. In the meantime we will have to just stave off the New Years resolutionists as I like to call them, Until they have run out of steam, which will probably be around February of 2014 lol.